(Arc) What I Lost – Alexandra Ballard


What sixteen-year-old Elizabeth has lost so far: forty pounds, four jean sizes, a boyfriend, and her peace of mind. As a result, she’s finally a size zero. She’s also the newest resident at Wallingfield, a treatment center for girls like her—girls with eating disorders. Elizabeth is determined to endure the program so she can go back home, where she plans to start restricting her food intake again. She’s pretty sure her mom, who has her own size 0 obsession, needs treatment as much as she does. Maybe even more. Then Elizabeth begins receiving mysterious packages. Are they from her ex-boyfriend, a secret admirer, or someone playing a cruel trick?



I was sure what to expect with this novel. I had watched Emma books review on it and was very curious about it. I was blown away by the book. It does remind me of to the bone on Netflix, but a little different. The book does revolve around an eating disorder, so if that is something you are not comfortable reading about I would skip this book. I really enjoyed this novel and how it opened your eyes to what people with eating disorders go through and their treatment process to overcome it.

The story revolves around 16-year-old Elizabeth, who is struggling with an eating disorder. She constantly counts calories and restricts her intake of food, so that she will stay a size 0. She has body image issues and her parents send her to Wallingfield to get the help she needs. You see Elizabeth struggle with eating and her recovery. You watch her struggle to overcome her disorder and try to get to a healthier lifestyle.

One thing I did like in this book was the relationship with the mom. While Elizabeth was recovering she came to the same conclusion that her mom needed help also has she was restricting her dieting and not eating. To me, it seemed that while Elizabeth was getting help and recognizing that what she was doing was not good, she also realized that her mom was doing the same thing. Towards the end of the book, they became cheerleaders for each other.

Overall this book did open me up to what someone with an eating disorder has gone through or is going through now. I can’t even begin to imagine how hard it is for them. It has definitely opened my eyes and started a healthy discussion with my family and how nagging on the way someone looks or if they are too fat is not good for their mental health. I really recommend this book to everyone as it is a truly is a wonderful book and lets you see something from someone else’s point of view.



2 thoughts on “(Arc) What I Lost – Alexandra Ballard

  1. Chelsea (lostamongthepages) says:

    Yes! I loved this so so much!! One of my favs of the year! I only had two complaints 1. That I wanted more. Haha!! Like, I just want to check in and make sure that she is okay, you know? 2. That whole “mystery” gift thing I felt just wasn’t needed. I also liked that the romance wasn’t a huge part of the story!

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